Yesterday it was so beautiful outside that we spent most of the day outside cleaning and sprucing up the house and cars. I pulled out the baby carrier I have been using for baby girl since her birth. She never lets me carry her in it anymore. I have had it stashed in the car for a few months now unused. I knew this day would come when I would no longer need it. I decided to go ahead and post it for sale and within minutes, I got a buyer. Great right!?
Today, as I know I will be parting with this part of my life forever, I am suddenly sad. I have started thinking about it more. I used this thing almost daily. She would sleep against me in it for hours. She loved it when I wore her on my back and I loved it because she was so cuddly. This carrier made it possible for me to take all of the kids shopping, to the park, or anywhere really. It has been an essential for me and her. The fact that I no longer need it is bittersweet. She is more independent now and can walk by my side, which is good. She refuses to even get in it now if I offer.
I got teary about it this morning and Ethan said to me “Mom, I know it makes you sad to not need it anymore but we don’t need it and that mom does so why would we keep it?”. The wisdom of a 10 yr old….. He’s right, we don’t need it and it would just sit here collecting dust and I would much rather it go to good use by someone else who can use it. I keep thinking of random situations that we might need it in as an excuse to keep it but the fact of the matter is that she would rather walk than ride now so it is useless to us now.
So, I will part with it, very heavy-heartedly but she will always be my baby in my eyes.
Nurturing Insanity 